March 25, 2016

March UPDATE - Hurry up & wait

This year has brought about some of the most trying and difficult times of my life. I started the new year super optimistic and ready to really make 2016 MY YEAR <3 

All of that STOPPED me in my tracks.

I questioned EVERYTHING.

We QUICKLY met our high, YEARLY medical deductible & doctors STILL had NO answers.

My focus went from my family and my business to CONSUMED with grief and depression.

I started seeking answers on my own and researching like crazy. I read, A LOT. Medical journals and I became BFFs. I watched numerous documentaries. I spent the first 10 weeks of the new year consumed with trying to find answers to get me OUT of this hell hole.

I am SO thankful for that!

Now I'm looking at 40 more weeks of this year and instead of seeing the black cloud that's been following me around, I'm starting to see the blue skies. I'm seeing the possibilities and opportunity I'm being given.

I'm seeing my struggles as a blessing that God is giving me.

I'm turning my MESS into my MESSAGE.

I'm still on a path trying to find out what can help, hurt and move me forward but I'm no longer held down by the feeling of impossibility. I know that eventually we will have the answers we seek. I know what I CAN control.

I read some stuff in my book today that REALLY stuck out to me, so I wanted to share them with you!

"Our bodies are fragile, this life is precious, and you my dear are taking that for granted."

"Don't compromise yourself. You are all you've got."

"Nobody will remember the immaculate house I kept, the car I drove or the public awards I received. What people will remember is that I didn't give up."

While I'm still facing many obstacles, I'm no longer a victim. I'm not just floating in airplane mode. I'm becoming a victor! I'm owning it and moving forward. Every day is a new day to walk this road and make new choices.

Thanks to all of you for sticking with me, trusting me, praying for me and encouraging me <3

THIS is just the beginning and the next 40 weeks are about to BLOW up. God is about to do something MAJOR - I feel it. #excited



  1. I know a lot of stay at home moms who suffer from GAD and hypochondria. Sometimes just a part-time job and getting out and into the "real world" can make all the difference. Even the free months I was home with each baby made me looney. As soon as I started working again I lost weight and felt good about myself again. Maybe that's what you could try next?

    1. Hey Katy! Thanks for your suggestion! I already have a full time gig from home :) and we know this is all medical (autoimmune, thyroid, etc) so it's just a matter of finding what works for my body medically.

      I'm not a work in the field kinda person.. Did that for years and it made me crazy! Haha being my own boss is perfect for me.


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