November 24, 2014

"I'm Letting Go"

If you're anything like me, you're a control freak. Ok, not so much on the freak part ;) but you get where I'm going with this. I need a handle on life at all times. Handing over the reigns isn't exactly my strong suit. I can control my surroundings when I'm the one calling the shots.

Being married, having all the "adult" stuff (house, car, bills), being a parent ---> all of those things basically equal a complete state of chaos. You never know what could happen at any given moment. Someone could lose their job, a tree falls on your house, someone hits your car, your kids get the flu and you have to spend $350 on Tamiflu to help get them better (<-- true story.. just happened 3 days ago...)


My point is life is CRAZY. When I decided to quit my corporate America job when my oldest was born we went from a two income household to one. YIKES. and we were adding another human. Then exactly a year later we found out we were pregnant again... AHHHH! Anyone else feeling the tension just from me telling this story?! The control freak in me was LOSING IT. How was I supposed to afford basic life stuff with ONE income?!


It was my dream to be a stay at home mom, but it was hard. Really hard! I had settled that our dreams and destiny would have to wait until our kids were older and all our student loans were paid off (in ten years!) After my daughter was born in 2013, I knew there was something else meant for me. I knew that I needed to not only financially contribute to our income, but that I was MEANT for more. That as much as my kids needed me, there were others out there who needed me too.


I prayed A LOT about the Beachbody opportunity. I decided to LET GO and LET GOD <--- Do you know how HARD that is for a control freak?? To say, yeah, I'll invest this $140 in myself and try to start my own business... but, you know what? It's what God has put me here to do.


This song by Francesca Battistelli spells it out to perfectly. For her, it was letting go and letting God lead her into the music industry and leaving behind her whole life. In her song she says, "I'm letting go, Of the life I planned for me, And my dreams. Losing control, Of my destiny. Feels like I'm falling and that's what it's like to believe. So I'm letting go"




And you know what? That is EXACTLY what I went through. I let GO of the life I had planned for me. The life of debt, stress, inadequacy, disappointment, surrendering to our financial state.. all of it, I let go of that. I felt exactly like I was falling! Having no control over the future of what I was choosing to financially invest in AND trying to build a future with. Her song says, "This is a giant leap of faith. Trusting and trying to embrace. The fear of the unknown, beyond my comfort zone." <-- yup, all of that.


But then - one day, I woke up and felt like "this is exactly where I'm supposed to be". With such peace. THIS new life felt like my destiny. Belief. It felt GOOD to let go! "Giving into your gravity. Knowing You are holding me. I'm not afraid." <-- yup, all of THAT!


Letting go and letting God has been the most rewarding experience!! It's been a WILD ride! But knowing God put me here to not only do this work for ME but for other women too.. I'm fulfilled and I'm not afraid! I'm taking the bull by the horns, dreaming BIG and doing the WORK.


I'm blessed that I'm able to offer this experience to other women (and men!) who are in the same place I was. Stuck, ready for a change, scared to death, financially strapped, exhausted just thinking about how to pay the bills, tired of feeling tired... that was me... I GET IT. I was there. But at some point you say enough is enough. Is that you? If so, let's chat. I lead monthly training groups to help get rid of some of that "ahhhhh life is out of control and I'm trying to help myself but I'm LOST!!" feeling!


Your dreams don't work unless you do. Are you ready to work? My next training starts on December 1st. I would LOVE to help you move on from that scary place you're in now! For your benefit - health, fitness, nutrition and for the life of freedom you can create.





Take a few minutes and read all the lyrics for the song I posted above... They are so powerful! 


"I'm Letting Go"



My heart beats, standing on the edge
But my feet have finally left the ledge


Like an acrobat
There's no turning back


[Chorus]
I'm letting go
Of the life I planned for me
And my dreams
Losing control
Of my destiny
Feels like I'm falling and that's what it's like to believe
So I'm letting go

This is a giant leap of faith
Trusting and trying to embrace

The fear of the unknown
Beyond my comfort zone


[Chorus]
I'm letting go
Of the life I planned for me
And my dreams
Losing control
Of my destiny
Feels like I'm falling and that's what it's like to believe
So I'm letting go

Giving in to your gravity
Knowing You are holding me
I'm not afraid

Feels like I'm falling and that's what it's like to believe
Feels like I'm falling and this is the life for me
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